[crying in hidden]
sometimes everytime when my faith is weak. i feel like i want to have a relationship, have a boyfriend which is clearly prohibited by my religion t ho. to be honest.. i don't get as much love as i should. that's why i wreaked it out to have a relationship . But as hard as i try,i still cannot do it. i am afraid if i loose faith in Allah. Moreover,i am always afraid to establish relationship. what if he doesn't like me ?what if i don't fit in his criteria? whether he'll like all my shortcomings? and much more. i want to run away from here as far as i can, when there's anyone can hear me scream. But i don't know which place to go. i am empty, truly empty. i want to take out all the sadness from this self. all this sadness very torture me. i let my self live in darkness,listen to all the loud song which is where all the lyrics fit in my condition. triying to ignore all the problems put a headset on my ear and drowning in that atmosphere. untill finally,
